All That I'm Living For

Shutupshutupshutupshutup! Don't wanna tell, nothing happened, nothing happened, don't wanna tell.

Fi~ne

Hey, assholes hope isn't a crime, in the past tons of people have relpased and come back, and at least I'm not off tortuing some chick to death hey Zero how's B? Isabella, you bitch, coulnd't even drop by to say 'hi', huh? By the by decoded the binary, not exactly singing its prasies am I? More like...well look up there I don't want to tell you what happened six years ago, so I threw up a chunk of giberish in binary.

These illusions, or whatever are going to stay here 'till I tell you, or I go completely insane, and the latter is slightly worse.

Six years ago, nothing officially happened. The reality of the situation is...slightly different however. Me and some 'friends' went out at night to play some stupid game, in an graveyard of course. One minute I was hiding the next two hands had managed to slip around my throat, no, no zombies in this tale just an over competitive younger kid. Couldn't cry out, couldn't breathe, and I was blacking out. I got pissed broke free and smashed the little fucker against a headstone. THEN the others appeared screaming at me, acting all righteous and pissed one even took a swing, broke the fucker's nose. Things escalated, the only nearby house heard the shouting and called the cops. Kid got treatment, mild concussion forgot the night, month later he was out and fine. Told my story got yelled at and grilled on the dangers of such things, fragilefragilefragilefragile, NO. Was thirteen, and the brat left bruises, notmyfaultnotmyfault, nothing official happened. Didn't feel guilty, don't feel guilty, but it made my life hell for no short amount of time I was the kid who almost murdered two people and felt nothing about it.

"My ghosts are gaining on me"

How long does adrenaline last? All the way through a night? Does that sound right to you? Nope~ I'm a sociopath...kind of. I don't lack empathy and as a rule I'll run into a fire to save someone I don't know, but if you antagonize me I'll watch you burn with a smile on my face. The Husks are just mooks to me 'cause they're not harder to kill than any other untrained human who attacks me. Oh look~ they're gone.

Good Luck



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Consequence Free

Decided to bring it home for my...er, return to home. It seems Elle's been on, didn't expect her to guess I'd make her name my password, still small traps. As for where I was...hospital, flinched too much when the Doc was wrapping the broken arm, one full body examination later and I'm more medical tape than man. My 'guest' is dead, but he did teach me a two things: the names of every single person I need to mourn properly when this is over, and no matter how stable they may seem one second, and no matter how many there, are never turn your back on a Husk

Things went to shit amazingly fast, I have no words...well, no, that's not true, I have words: angry, hurtful words, that are lashing out, and blaming the victim. I so wanted my first post to contain a slice of normalcy...but, that's clearly not going to happen now. Liam, Jonathon thanks for worrying but I'm fine...and getting the feeling I should rescind that offer of haven.

Good Luck, everyone who's left.

Snow Rain

Snowdrops. Despite their drooping bulbs they symbolize hope, its not hard to understand they're Winter blooms through the white blanket of death they thrive. I think its a far better background than that dull black.

Not much to say, just making it clear that I'm here. Still depressed and feel like kicking myself, but that'll pass eventually. I'm sick after running around for 4 hours in the cold and snow, little sleep did me no favors. Didn't catch her don't know how she knew I was coming either. Judging by her post I'm putting money on 'Agent' rather than 'Husk', for now anyway.

Got the laptop, haven't looked at it yet, stashed it outside the house, nearby.

It's not been a good few days, not broken though, this is trivial compared to the shit the rest of the Fighters have put up with.

Good luck.