There is a lot of fog here. Like, seriously far FAR too much fog. yeahyeahyeahyeah ISEEYOU to. There's wi-fi here maybe becuase...no not the time for speculation after. After I'm out, after I've changed the background back afterafter. Gottta..gotta..didn't get captured wanted to come here had to test something, confirm something had to get to...doesn't matter anymore, stay safe Aussie. Could use this chance to go pay everyone a visit personally, no, no, stupid. Physics work wierd here, ya know? I hit someone to steal this....this...this...thing. I know it has a name whatisitwhatisitwhatitis ithasaname! Pointless, that train of thought is pointless, calm down, calm. BACXK OFF FUCKER. Right, right, physics be fucked, hit the guy and his head kinda like...play-dough hit it, and it just collapsed then BOING back to shape...think they might be dead, didn't check. Getting out of her now, messing with my heads in wierd ways. Or maybe I won't too soon to be sure, left arm is burning head is poiunding branches are shifting and screwy and ISEEYOU. Need to get out.
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Sunday, February 20, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Extend Ash-Hourai Victim
Regular Session with Subject/Patient --- #14
Doctor: About this relationship you've been forming with Elizabeth
Me: What about it?
D: I know you had contact with her last time you were here.
M: Yes
D: And you were getting along fine then, and when you first came
M: Yes
D: So what's changed?
M: Her opinion of it is changing.
D: How so?
M: She's started calling it almost fanatical names, like she's worshiping it.
D: And how are the others, and yourself reacting to this?
M: I don't like it, the others are agreeing, they think it's to be worshiped I think it needs to be killed
D: Right, right, I've let this go far enough this Tall Man isn't real He doesn't exist.
M: [Angrily] it, Doctor, it. it is not a man it is malice, and negativity given form, and if it doesn't exist then what happened to my friends?
D: [Soothingly] Yes, right, it, forgive me the others just prefer I refer to it as the Ta-that name.
M: Right, right.
D: Now then I feel we can move on
M: To what?
D: According to an incident report from a few days ago Elizabeth had cut herself and was saying some rather unpleasant things.
M: That happened.
D: You're response was, do you remember?
M: I punched her, trying to knock her out
D: And when the blood splattered on you?
M: Not my fault, she did it to herself, because of it, not my fault, couldn't be real, it's all a fake it's just paranoia, not my fault, but can't be real, fragile fragile all so damn fragile.
D: Jeffery! Focus!
M: [Startled] Huh? What? I-what?
D: Perhaps you should tell me more about this forest behind your house, just what kind of experiences have you had in there?
M: Just walks. Never saw anything that wasn't a bug. Heard them all the time, flashes from the perio-periph-peri
D: Peripheral?
M: Yeah, that. Deers, coyotes, foxes, squirrels, everything really.
D: Coyotes?
M: Or something, they were always just out of sight.
D: This didn't bother you?
M: A little, when I was younger, but they never did anything it just was.
D: Ever get lost?
M: All the time, but never for more than a few hours I always stumbled back onto the path, or something appeared and I followed and then I was out and whatever led me out was gone.
D: 'Something'? 'Whatever'?
M: Yeah, sometimes they were deer other times those dog-like things, squirrels, birds, whatever.
D: Every time you got lost?
M: If it was late.
D: And this isn't odd to you?
M: Got used to it.
D: Right.
[Nothing else important happens here 'regular session #15 however]
D: Are your fellows still-
M: Yes, they seem to think that's safer, and some are just.
D: And what are you doing?
M: Dissuading them reminding them it's all in their heads explaining it away.
D: And that's working coming from you?
M: Somewhat, it showed up and they started getting a little-
D: Yes, there was an incident report to that effect.
M: An incident report of it showing up?
D: No, of the extreme patients all gathering in one place in awe and terror except you and Elizabeth who were arguing and gesturing to empty air.
M: Where everyone seemed to agree it was standing.
D: Does it exist?
M: I don't know anymore.
D: it doesn't make sense, just forget, and see if you can get the others to as well.
M: Yeah, sure.
[Regular session #16]
D: Why aren't you as afraid of it as the others seem to be?
M: Because I hurt-I didn't-I maybe-stabbed it with an icicle. Was so mad, just killed the only people who would actually talk to me like a person, just grabbed at the first thing I could and stabbed. They were-weren't melting the mist burned and I stabbed it and one of the things the long things like a squid that were there but couldn't be that left a wound that can't exist. it lashed out, it hurt, it burned, it cut, I pulled the icicle back it's...goo or blood, or whatever flew off. Landed on my arm, on my face, on my everything, burned so bad. Felt something, something that's not real, can't be real, can't be. it hit me, or, or something or I lost my balance or, one minute stabbing the next against a tree. Real loud now, with the screaming, and the blood and the mist that didn't burn so bad anymore and the pumping of my heart and theirs and the animals that were everywhere and wouldn't shut up and the screaming of the trees and it there in the center of the chaos the thing that isn't can't ever be, but is. Then it was gone and they were gone, and the trees stopped screaming and the animals stopped screaming, but my heart was still hammering away, and I walked, and then doors. Was lost, lost for so long, for hours, minutes, seconds? Reporters say three days, can't be can't be, can't be, wasn't gone that long, why were there doors in a forest, where did everything go? Why? Got annoyed told them, told them to take me back, doors opened whispered horrid things, that I should just die, that everything would forever be fragile, like glass, so fragile, always doomed, always doomed to break everything to crack, and creak but never break but watch things break. Out of the forest, animals watching me deer runs out looks at me, and walks away, bleeding, burning, still can smell death and blood, and taste iron, and dirty and crying and the icicle has melted, and they're all dead, and fragile and strung up in the trees. So fragile, so fragile, so fragile. Can't have happened, didn't happen, not, not, not.
(Here Doctor [REDACTED] forced a pill down Subject/Patient ---'s throat in an attempt to help him calm down. He displayed a rather violent reaction immediately retching before vomiting into the office's trash-bin, oddly this seems to have helped him regain his focus)
M:[Weakly] I...I apologize, that was all, all a fantasy to hide whatever truth exists in this head of mine obviously, but it won't be coming out today I think.
D: Yes, we will call this meeting done for today. See you next time.
M: Yeah.
Sealed document:
Subject/Patient --- continues to espouse his desire to kill the Recurring Problem, and has talked some of the lesser cases down into a more stable state of mind where they can be convinced it truly is nothing, however the more extreme cases such as Elizabeth [REDACTED] must be dealt with in slightly more extreme measures, hypno therapy and gentle nudging can create memories surely they, with some assistance can erase or suppress them as well. The 'leader' of the cult-fanatics Elizabeth [REDACTED] shall be the first test subject, Subject/Patient --- shall be the last circumstances permitting, his dissuasion and Elizabeth's removal from leadership should have a beneficial effect for all.
Signed and Sealed
[INFORMATION PURGED]
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I suppose it should be obvious since these documents are 'sealed' but it's becoming increasingly obvious that I am really not supposed to have these papers. I've also run a check on the staff registry, the Doctor who gave me these papers isn't on the staff registry, the actual Doctor who I was supposed to meet called and informed me that he had been attacked and someone had replaced him. I have since met him and obtained the 'official' documents. They match mostly, but the 'official' ones have a bunch of stuff either added or removed from the ones I received on my initial visit. The 'official' ones aren't the ones I've been posting, so what do you all say, is this realistic enough or am I being led astray by someone? If the initial paperwork is the real-deal I'm very lucky this blog and gmail account is under a false name, they probably aren't keeping that close an eye on someone who's been 'sane' for 6 years.
Other consequences of these papers being real: me and Elizabeth met in a mental hospital, she introduced me to it, it led me to her, her sudden defect to it's side wasn't so 'sudden' after all. Also....no shouldn't even think that until I get some theories on the validity of the reality in these pages.
Oh, and I haven't said this lately, and I really should be:
To everyone
Good luck, and give it hell.
Doctor: About this relationship you've been forming with Elizabeth
Me: What about it?
D: I know you had contact with her last time you were here.
M: Yes
D: And you were getting along fine then, and when you first came
M: Yes
D: So what's changed?
M: Her opinion of it is changing.
D: How so?
M: She's started calling it almost fanatical names, like she's worshiping it.
D: And how are the others, and yourself reacting to this?
M: I don't like it, the others are agreeing, they think it's to be worshiped I think it needs to be killed
D: Right, right, I've let this go far enough this Tall Man isn't real He doesn't exist.
M: [Angrily] it, Doctor, it. it is not a man it is malice, and negativity given form, and if it doesn't exist then what happened to my friends?
D: [Soothingly] Yes, right, it, forgive me the others just prefer I refer to it as the Ta-that name.
M: Right, right.
D: Now then I feel we can move on
M: To what?
D: According to an incident report from a few days ago Elizabeth had cut herself and was saying some rather unpleasant things.
M: That happened.
D: You're response was, do you remember?
M: I punched her, trying to knock her out
D: And when the blood splattered on you?
M: Not my fault, she did it to herself, because of it, not my fault, couldn't be real, it's all a fake it's just paranoia, not my fault, but can't be real, fragile fragile all so damn fragile.
D: Jeffery! Focus!
M: [Startled] Huh? What? I-what?
D: Perhaps you should tell me more about this forest behind your house, just what kind of experiences have you had in there?
M: Just walks. Never saw anything that wasn't a bug. Heard them all the time, flashes from the perio-periph-peri
D: Peripheral?
M: Yeah, that. Deers, coyotes, foxes, squirrels, everything really.
D: Coyotes?
M: Or something, they were always just out of sight.
D: This didn't bother you?
M: A little, when I was younger, but they never did anything it just was.
D: Ever get lost?
M: All the time, but never for more than a few hours I always stumbled back onto the path, or something appeared and I followed and then I was out and whatever led me out was gone.
D: 'Something'? 'Whatever'?
M: Yeah, sometimes they were deer other times those dog-like things, squirrels, birds, whatever.
D: Every time you got lost?
M: If it was late.
D: And this isn't odd to you?
M: Got used to it.
D: Right.
[Nothing else important happens here 'regular session #15 however]
D: Are your fellows still-
M: Yes, they seem to think that's safer, and some are just.
D: And what are you doing?
M: Dissuading them reminding them it's all in their heads explaining it away.
D: And that's working coming from you?
M: Somewhat, it showed up and they started getting a little-
D: Yes, there was an incident report to that effect.
M: An incident report of it showing up?
D: No, of the extreme patients all gathering in one place in awe and terror except you and Elizabeth who were arguing and gesturing to empty air.
M: Where everyone seemed to agree it was standing.
D: Does it exist?
M: I don't know anymore.
D: it doesn't make sense, just forget, and see if you can get the others to as well.
M: Yeah, sure.
[Regular session #16]
D: Why aren't you as afraid of it as the others seem to be?
M: Because I hurt-I didn't-I maybe-stabbed it with an icicle. Was so mad, just killed the only people who would actually talk to me like a person, just grabbed at the first thing I could and stabbed. They were-weren't melting the mist burned and I stabbed it and one of the things the long things like a squid that were there but couldn't be that left a wound that can't exist. it lashed out, it hurt, it burned, it cut, I pulled the icicle back it's...goo or blood, or whatever flew off. Landed on my arm, on my face, on my everything, burned so bad. Felt something, something that's not real, can't be real, can't be. it hit me, or, or something or I lost my balance or, one minute stabbing the next against a tree. Real loud now, with the screaming, and the blood and the mist that didn't burn so bad anymore and the pumping of my heart and theirs and the animals that were everywhere and wouldn't shut up and the screaming of the trees and it there in the center of the chaos the thing that isn't can't ever be, but is. Then it was gone and they were gone, and the trees stopped screaming and the animals stopped screaming, but my heart was still hammering away, and I walked, and then doors. Was lost, lost for so long, for hours, minutes, seconds? Reporters say three days, can't be can't be, can't be, wasn't gone that long, why were there doors in a forest, where did everything go? Why? Got annoyed told them, told them to take me back, doors opened whispered horrid things, that I should just die, that everything would forever be fragile, like glass, so fragile, always doomed, always doomed to break everything to crack, and creak but never break but watch things break. Out of the forest, animals watching me deer runs out looks at me, and walks away, bleeding, burning, still can smell death and blood, and taste iron, and dirty and crying and the icicle has melted, and they're all dead, and fragile and strung up in the trees. So fragile, so fragile, so fragile. Can't have happened, didn't happen, not, not, not.
(Here Doctor [REDACTED] forced a pill down Subject/Patient ---'s throat in an attempt to help him calm down. He displayed a rather violent reaction immediately retching before vomiting into the office's trash-bin, oddly this seems to have helped him regain his focus)
M:[Weakly] I...I apologize, that was all, all a fantasy to hide whatever truth exists in this head of mine obviously, but it won't be coming out today I think.
D: Yes, we will call this meeting done for today. See you next time.
M: Yeah.
Sealed document:
Subject/Patient --- continues to espouse his desire to kill the Recurring Problem, and has talked some of the lesser cases down into a more stable state of mind where they can be convinced it truly is nothing, however the more extreme cases such as Elizabeth [REDACTED] must be dealt with in slightly more extreme measures, hypno therapy and gentle nudging can create memories surely they, with some assistance can erase or suppress them as well. The 'leader' of the cult-fanatics Elizabeth [REDACTED] shall be the first test subject, Subject/Patient --- shall be the last circumstances permitting, his dissuasion and Elizabeth's removal from leadership should have a beneficial effect for all.
Signed and Sealed
[INFORMATION PURGED]
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I suppose it should be obvious since these documents are 'sealed' but it's becoming increasingly obvious that I am really not supposed to have these papers. I've also run a check on the staff registry, the Doctor who gave me these papers isn't on the staff registry, the actual Doctor who I was supposed to meet called and informed me that he had been attacked and someone had replaced him. I have since met him and obtained the 'official' documents. They match mostly, but the 'official' ones have a bunch of stuff either added or removed from the ones I received on my initial visit. The 'official' ones aren't the ones I've been posting, so what do you all say, is this realistic enough or am I being led astray by someone? If the initial paperwork is the real-deal I'm very lucky this blog and gmail account is under a false name, they probably aren't keeping that close an eye on someone who's been 'sane' for 6 years.
Other consequences of these papers being real: me and Elizabeth met in a mental hospital, she introduced me to it, it led me to her, her sudden defect to it's side wasn't so 'sudden' after all. Also....no shouldn't even think that until I get some theories on the validity of the reality in these pages.
Oh, and I haven't said this lately, and I really should be:
To everyone
Good luck, and give it hell.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Major Surgery
Hospital records state that Patient/Subject --- had a severe and unexplained redness across the whole of his body as well as a large gash on his left arm. The redness faded before any conclusion could be reached as to its cause. Patient/Subject ---'s left arm was treated immediately, however the leading physician noted afterward: 'the emergency paramedics noted the deepness of the wound, but at the time of surgery the wound was actually quite shallow. Further blood tests of [Patient/Subject ---] shows mild discrepancies with prior blood work.'
The victims were found two days later hanging from the trees of [REDACTED]'s public park, while Subject/Patient --- was still in the hospital. Victims were found in the usual state with several organs moved to different points; with one strange constant: the heart of all victims were placed whole in the left arm. The bones in the victims left arms have not yet been recovered in either the forest, or the victims' bodies. Various patches of skin on the victims' bodies appeared to have been melted off, as if by some high concentration acid, these missing patches of skin all have a tell-tale redness around them.
Judging by the state of the victims and Subject/Patient ---'s ramblings it is clear he has met the recurring problem, as such I move he be relocated to the extreme ward to prevent him from infecting others.
Signed and Sealed
[INFORMATION PURGED]
The victims were found two days later hanging from the trees of [REDACTED]'s public park, while Subject/Patient --- was still in the hospital. Victims were found in the usual state with several organs moved to different points; with one strange constant: the heart of all victims were placed whole in the left arm. The bones in the victims left arms have not yet been recovered in either the forest, or the victims' bodies. Various patches of skin on the victims' bodies appeared to have been melted off, as if by some high concentration acid, these missing patches of skin all have a tell-tale redness around them.
Judging by the state of the victims and Subject/Patient ---'s ramblings it is clear he has met the recurring problem, as such I move he be relocated to the extreme ward to prevent him from infecting others.
Signed and Sealed
[INFORMATION PURGED]
Friday, January 14, 2011
Bleed it out
Missing time. A common problem. Time is getting shorter...longer...wound on the ledftt. STAB. Ice everywhere. Blood everywhere. it everywhere. Have to havet o havehavehabveto. Time is shifting, changing, the tide is crashing against the blwhik rook. Made of an unknown liquid, how does ice affect it? Notrightnotrightnotright. Mixing, have to [title]. Not some stupid crazy man.
We were just playing, and then He, it was there. Killed them. So easy like spider-webs like glass 01100110 01110010 01100001 01100111 01101001 01101100 0110010101100110 01110010 01100001 01100111 01101001 01101100 0110010101100110 01110010 01100001 01100111 01101001 01101100 01100101. Not me, not me. Like a labyrinth. Lost twining and scratching and clawing and bleeding. They didn't they didn't just broke just shattered melted into the mist. Lost for hours...minutes...seconds?
Crazy, but not in the same way.
We were just playing, and then He, it was there. Killed them. So easy like spider-webs like glass 01100110 01110010 01100001 01100111 01101001 01101100 0110010101100110 01110010 01100001 01100111 01101001 01101100 0110010101100110 01110010 01100001 01100111 01101001 01101100 01100101. Not me, not me. Like a labyrinth. Lost twining and scratching and clawing and bleeding. They didn't they didn't just broke just shattered melted into the mist. Lost for hours...minutes...seconds?
Crazy, but not in the same way.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Regret Message
He finally crashed~, really I used to tell him to take better care of himself 36 hour days running around like a Fool trying to save everyone. Not my problem anymore though~.
Hello everyone its the dear 'sincerely' here! Since things are getting a little 'personal' for him now its only appropriate he got a blog, yeah? Something you should know about me my 'weird sense of humor', or whatever, is nothing more than his misconception. I think it started when we were talking about the ending to that show everyone was joined as one, it was a truly happy ending. When he heard that was my thought he laughed and said something I don't quite remember, since then he's misread me every step of the way, and he interested me. Even now hes called my house 4 times and my cell 3 times, so I threw it at a tree.
There's so much hes not telling you all, of course I won't be telling you either~.
For the record there is no regret here, no I'll save all the guilt for him, it is such a fitting mask for dear sweet Jeff. There is however a confession: I hate humanity. All the time on the news, and stories, and in every day life, a difference in opinion or a misunderstanding causes bloodshed. Its always so sickening to watch 'humanity' running around in a chaotic dance.
Without understanding this he told me of the Slender Man-though he never used the name, no always that blasphemousness lower 'it' as if he could lessen His standing with his pathetic words-and, perhaps without realizing, exposed me to his own theory of His 'hallowing' of people: 'a greater collective'.
Yes, that is the perfect solution one grander being to take us into Himself and make all as one. The end of conflict; all that needs to be done is remove the continuing nuisances, the lessers who think they can fight the pinnacle of all: the One, its pointless, pointless, pointless, pointless, pointless, your fight is pointless!
Humanity will never reach a single peace, what they desire is conflict and fear, no matter how much you all wish it humanity will never come to together and make a push for peace because they are beasts who can not, and will not understand others, and only think of themselves even the delusion of love is nothing but an attempt to pass on their genes. For proof of this look no further than Nightcrawler, regardless of having ways to 'blind' Him rather than moving forward to think of ways to beat Him, they focused on the 'elimination' of the problem through sheer violence rather than thought. 'Humanity' is a voracious beast that will devour, and devour, and devour, He is the necessary counter of nature. He is greater than that I am greater than that now when He appeared before me I willingly walked into His arms, because I understood, oh yes, I understood he could come here but dear sweet naive Fool simply wouldn't bend to him, he's sure of his identity and holds to his belief that its through separate thought processes that humanity gain strength and overcomes trials, he is wrong and He will prove it when he breaks you Fools down one by one and you realize the greatness of One.
There is no message here, no hidden secret to find, simply my truth condensed, if I seem more lucid than I should...would it amuse you to know its been 4 hours since I started this post, its hard to communicate on your lesser level, and my hands keep rebelling trying to create messages and hide truths for you to find, when there is none, I am only complete now, as you will be.
Now then as you were so nice to leave me your password dead Fool 'tsumi ni kizuku no wa itsumo' I'll leave two things for you first: this laptop your old one kept crashing 'cause something happened to it, right, you should thank me~. Second: I've changed your password, it seemed fair since I just gave it away, here's your hint: ''hanin wa dare, kimi wa shitteru ne kimi wa me no mae wo subete no dakara".
Hes coming for me, He didn't crash, it was a trap, hufufufu~ always forgot Hes quite smart, probably has all the hotspots memorized. Well then bye everyone maybe I'll be seeing some of you~!
Sincerely,
The One
Hello everyone its the dear 'sincerely' here! Since things are getting a little 'personal' for him now its only appropriate he got a blog, yeah? Something you should know about me my 'weird sense of humor', or whatever, is nothing more than his misconception. I think it started when we were talking about the ending to that show everyone was joined as one, it was a truly happy ending. When he heard that was my thought he laughed and said something I don't quite remember, since then he's misread me every step of the way, and he interested me. Even now hes called my house 4 times and my cell 3 times, so I threw it at a tree.
There's so much hes not telling you all, of course I won't be telling you either~.
For the record there is no regret here, no I'll save all the guilt for him, it is such a fitting mask for dear sweet Jeff. There is however a confession: I hate humanity. All the time on the news, and stories, and in every day life, a difference in opinion or a misunderstanding causes bloodshed. Its always so sickening to watch 'humanity' running around in a chaotic dance.
Without understanding this he told me of the Slender Man-though he never used the name, no always that blasphemousness lower 'it' as if he could lessen His standing with his pathetic words-and, perhaps without realizing, exposed me to his own theory of His 'hallowing' of people: 'a greater collective'.
Yes, that is the perfect solution one grander being to take us into Himself and make all as one. The end of conflict; all that needs to be done is remove the continuing nuisances, the lessers who think they can fight the pinnacle of all: the One, its pointless, pointless, pointless, pointless, pointless, your fight is pointless!
Humanity will never reach a single peace, what they desire is conflict and fear, no matter how much you all wish it humanity will never come to together and make a push for peace because they are beasts who can not, and will not understand others, and only think of themselves even the delusion of love is nothing but an attempt to pass on their genes. For proof of this look no further than Nightcrawler, regardless of having ways to 'blind' Him rather than moving forward to think of ways to beat Him, they focused on the 'elimination' of the problem through sheer violence rather than thought. 'Humanity' is a voracious beast that will devour, and devour, and devour, He is the necessary counter of nature. He is greater than that I am greater than that now when He appeared before me I willingly walked into His arms, because I understood, oh yes, I understood he could come here but dear sweet naive Fool simply wouldn't bend to him, he's sure of his identity and holds to his belief that its through separate thought processes that humanity gain strength and overcomes trials, he is wrong and He will prove it when he breaks you Fools down one by one and you realize the greatness of One.
There is no message here, no hidden secret to find, simply my truth condensed, if I seem more lucid than I should...would it amuse you to know its been 4 hours since I started this post, its hard to communicate on your lesser level, and my hands keep rebelling trying to create messages and hide truths for you to find, when there is none, I am only complete now, as you will be.
Now then as you were so nice to leave me your password dead Fool 'tsumi ni kizuku no wa itsumo' I'll leave two things for you first: this laptop your old one kept crashing 'cause something happened to it, right, you should thank me~. Second: I've changed your password, it seemed fair since I just gave it away, here's your hint: ''hanin wa dare, kimi wa shitteru ne kimi wa me no mae wo subete no dakara".
Hes coming for me, He didn't crash, it was a trap, hufufufu~ always forgot Hes quite smart, probably has all the hotspots memorized. Well then bye everyone maybe I'll be seeing some of you~!
Sincerely,
The One
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